Purpose...

Purpose...this is what I desire for my life. I want to know that my life, right now, has purpose. I don't like the idea of living my daily life in filler activities. That's where I feel like I am right now. I am putting minimal effort into school and life. I am simply frittering away the minutes until I can go back to sleep and have another day pass. I need something to drive towards. Something to see up ahead that I can run, struggle, press-on for... My daily routine is hollow. I don't like it. I want to work. I want to have a job. Not so much one of the Taco Bell persuasion, but a job that I can really invest in that involves lots of people. I need to find a church and get involved in a community. Motivation where are you?!? "Get off your butt and go", a phrase often repeated in my head. Often replied with, "Where the heck am I going?". I have no idea. Therein lies my problem. I have no idea where I am going, nor why I am here. What am I doing in college? God you called me here...why? What do you want me to do here?

I am ticked off...hopefully ticked enough to do something about it. It's time to change. Time to stop complaining and actually move and react.